Dear Mr. Bullshitter,

I am going to try to communicate to you in your own words. Something that you can understand. I love you may get you laid with some chicks but over use it aand the panties stop dropping and the finger becomes a more valid answer. See we had our run of 3 and a half years of back and forth you fuck around with ya "Boos, bitches, and hoes" and me telling you ill work things out but still talking to other people because even though part of me had hope you would change, the other half knows you never will.

The craziest thing is this time you put up a good front, nah scratch that a great front. I almost fell for the "i love you" text's you sent every night and the "i need you, i miss you, i wanna make things work" follow up's. Lucky for me though i have blasted out of that naive stage you once had me in and everything you say has to be validated through a lie detector with me now. I dont blame you though. I dont blame you for anything. It was my fault i got involved, my fault i let my guard down, and my fault i fell in love with someone i knew from the beginning would hurt me. Guess you can say at the time i was okay playing the fool but not anymore and i can guarantee you that your words mean nothing any longer being as your actions dont follow up.


So for the last time good bye Mr. Smooth talking, Heartbreaking, polygamist, Street hugging lover of mine. I am no longer a pawn or fool in your game of chest.

Farewell..
Signed.
8-17-07

a lil poem i wrote in crw205

Sweet and Sour Love

Passion, Romance and Smiles,

Fights, Arguments and Lies.

Something I want so much

Shouldn’t hurt this bad

This love that we have is so bittersweet

One moment it’s sweet,

And the next it goes sour.

When its good-

It’s great

When we fall-

We hit rock bottom

I never used to be that girl

Never sat at home wondering why

Now all I do is sit and cry

You cut me open-

Ripped out my heart

Chewed it up like it was gum

And spit it out on the curb

As you stepped on it

YOU SELFISH BITCH!

ALL YOU THINK ABOUT IS YOURSELF

What about me?

Did you ever love me?

NO!

HOW COULD I HAVE EVER TRUSTED YOU?

You lost my trust the day you deceived me

You did me dirty

Now nothing can ever be the same

HOW COULD I HAVE EVER TRUSTED YOU?

You played with me like I was a toy

And threw me under the bed when you got tired

You used and abused me

Mistaken my kindness for weakness

We argued so much,

So many endless fights

“FUCK YOU!”

“I HATE YOU!”

You walked out

My eyes began to water

Than the tears began to flow

Frustrated and thinking

Go to sleep, it will all be better in the morning

Than two hours later

“But I just want you here, I can’t sleep without you”

A knock on the door

An angry face

“Come lay down next to me”

A kiss goodnight to end the fight

But…

Our days weren’t always bad

had me feeling high off life

high off our love

from the sweet kisses

to the little things you would do just because

many endless nights-

just you and I

spending hours together

and yet still missed each other

Your kisses made my knees weak

Made my heart skip a beat

From the sweet “I love you, goodnights”

To the “good morning” texts

Going to bed together

And waking up in your arms

You were mine and nothing came in between that

What happened to this love?

You took a pencil and erased the happy ending

When you needed me I would come running

Our love is insane

We keep moving in circles

Breaking up to making up

I’m tired of the circles

They are making me dizzy

This is it

NO MORE CIRCLES

THIS IS MY FINAL GOODBYE