Dear Journal,
I wonder where i would be in the next 10 years. Dad's been kind of pressuring me about college since i'm in my last year of high school but i don't know if i want to go. I've thought about it but i don't think i want to go. I'd rather be an actress or model or something of that nature. I just basically don'y want to go......
As i read my journal i realize now what a fool i was always thinkin about what my Daddy would say. What Daddy would think about this or that? But you know what fu^k him. He don't give 2 shi%s about me any damn way. Fuk his dumb a55...
I said to myself i laid next to the new John Doe. The reason i call him John Doe is because he aint gonna last 2 weeks. They never do! I don't blame them either i got two no name or face kids i gave up when they were born i dont really know where they are right now but any ways back to these ni**a's. They get they little nut, hit me off w/ some cash, and be gone the next day. It aint like i need them for anything besides the money anyways.
"A yo get up my dude it's time to go!" i said ripping the covers off his exposed body. only he made no sound or movement. Nigg^ must think this is a damn hotel.
"Yo stop playin son i gotta get to work!" As i rolled him over hi eyes stared back at me with a piercing darkness. I didn't know what to do so i just got up and ran until i couldn't run no more. Seeing that there was no where else to run i ran to my moms house and yelled her name. As i walked into the house i caught a glimpse of my mother falling to the floor as she yelled to the lord asking why. I tried calling her name but nothing happened. It was as if i were a mute She just continued screaming hysterically. It lasted on for a couple weeks till she got all dressed in black on her way to churh, She still hadn't spoken to me i guess she was still sad about
her phone call. I went with her today dressed up in my beautiful black dress and black stilettos. When we got to church i saw the John Doe who i left in my bed with the piercing black eye'sonly today they were'nt black they were red and full of pain. Maybe that's why nobody came lookin for me at momma's. Well anyways as i watched him sitting there i noticed two little girls who sat on each side of him that looked just me. I was glad i wore black cause it seemed to be a funeral was takin place today. As soon as my mother neared the front she fell to the ground.I was gonna try to help her up but but the man with the two little girls ranto her aid and held her as he whispered something into her ear and they held eachother as their tears flew freely. I walked to the front of the church to the caskest and couldn't believe my eye's. It was..It was....Me..
I wonder where i would be in the next 10 years. Dad's been kind of pressuring me about college since i'm in my last year of high school but i don't know if i want to go. I've thought about it but i don't think i want to go. I'd rather be an actress or model or something of that nature. I just basically don'y want to go......
As i read my journal i realize now what a fool i was always thinkin about what my Daddy would say. What Daddy would think about this or that? But you know what fu^k him. He don't give 2 shi%s about me any damn way. Fuk his dumb a55...
I said to myself i laid next to the new John Doe. The reason i call him John Doe is because he aint gonna last 2 weeks. They never do! I don't blame them either i got two no name or face kids i gave up when they were born i dont really know where they are right now but any ways back to these ni**a's. They get they little nut, hit me off w/ some cash, and be gone the next day. It aint like i need them for anything besides the money anyways.
"A yo get up my dude it's time to go!" i said ripping the covers off his exposed body. only he made no sound or movement. Nigg^ must think this is a damn hotel.
"Yo stop playin son i gotta get to work!" As i rolled him over hi eyes stared back at me with a piercing darkness. I didn't know what to do so i just got up and ran until i couldn't run no more. Seeing that there was no where else to run i ran to my moms house and yelled her name. As i walked into the house i caught a glimpse of my mother falling to the floor as she yelled to the lord asking why. I tried calling her name but nothing happened. It was as if i were a mute She just continued screaming hysterically. It lasted on for a couple weeks till she got all dressed in black on her way to churh, She still hadn't spoken to me i guess she was still sad about
her phone call. I went with her today dressed up in my beautiful black dress and black stilettos. When we got to church i saw the John Doe who i left in my bed with the piercing black eye'sonly today they were'nt black they were red and full of pain. Maybe that's why nobody came lookin for me at momma's. Well anyways as i watched him sitting there i noticed two little girls who sat on each side of him that looked just me. I was glad i wore black cause it seemed to be a funeral was takin place today. As soon as my mother neared the front she fell to the ground.I was gonna try to help her up but but the man with the two little girls ranto her aid and held her as he whispered something into her ear and they held eachother as their tears flew freely. I walked to the front of the church to the caskest and couldn't believe my eye's. It was..It was....Me..
