Trust

Some peope say its hard to trust, personaly i think it's harder to be trusted. Constant questions of who, what, when, where, how, AND why. Sometimes that shit just makes you feel like a child. Start requestioning your actions like damn should i really have eaten the banana on the way from the store or waited till i got home to sit in their face and eat it just so they'd kknow i REALLy went to the store. That real stupid, show and tell type of shit. Make you feel like you in kindergarden all over again. and god forbid you actually step outta line for heavens sake call the feds cause ya ass about to be walking the green mile. Its like you cant take a step forward without jotting down how far you stepped and all your thoughts in between making that step. Sounds crazy? Yeah i know but see thats what happens when there is no trust. When the past fucks some one up so bad they just dont know how to love. Too busy questioning motives and putting roadblocks out just so that you never get too close. Its crazy. You spend all ya time working on breaking one wall down and the person youre with starts remembering past shit that another person did and the walls right back up again. Its hard trying to be trustworthy to a person who has no trust. Who sits and thinks about all the wrong you could be doing when you out of the eye imit. Im not gonna lie i used to say trust was something hard for me to do too. But sitting on the opposite side shit now i know better. You cant expect walls to break cause you just said "yo baby just trust me" just the benefit of the doubt would be nice maybe a tad bit of the trusting. But i guess that will never happen when you have someone so baddly burned from previous scars that their too blind and numb to when the real deal comes along. Trust..**Sigh** Shit i wish.